I Didn’t Know I Could Think Bigger
As someone in her mid-forties, in perimenopause, working the same job that leaves me dissatisfied and I have now made it into a 22-year career, I didn’t know that I could think bigger.
In the last 5 years, I have changed my life drastically, I have moved states three times, but I still work the same job. I am very fortunate to be able to work from home and with that comes the ability to work from anywhere. I am grateful for that. It’s a good job (but it doesn’t pay enough), and it doesn’t challenge me.
Things that interest me have always been kind of “woo woo” that no one I know in real life would encourage me to pursue. I have always been too embarrassed to share that part of me with people I know IRL. I would rather seek the support of strangers on the internet, than tell my friends or family something that, career-wise would make me happy, for fear of judgment. Does that sound familiar?
I stayed in a marriage that wasn’t working and working a job that I don’t like just to please my parents. For someone my age, I know that sounds strange, but I’m an only child and the expectations are high, lol. When I moved from Ohio to Texas in 2022, my family and friends kept asking if it was a mid-life crisis, but it was the first time I had done something just because I wanted to. I felt that it was the right thing for me, and it was.
This is not to say that you should never take other people’s feelings into consideration when making life decisions, but there comes a point when you must do what makes you happy.
Sometimes I think about what my life would be like if I hadn’t made the decision to make a better life for myself. It gives me intense anxiety to think about it. I was so unhappy.
What I have wanted to do for a long time is help people practice more mindfulness in their life. So many things pass us by when we are too busy looking at the past or into the future at something that is the “safe option”, the “good enough option”, that when we aren’t living in the present moment, we don’t realize we miss it until it is too late. The present is all we have.
If this resonates, please join me, we can navigate mindful living together and I can teach you how to romanticize your life in the present moment. How to do even mundane things with presence and meditation. I want to help you bring joy into your life. This is me thinking bigger. Bigger than myself and using my passion to help serve others.
Angela
